Everyone Has Something
Listened to the show Saturday and it was not bad. Was pushing at the first soft lights signifying an impending migraine, and I should know by now that there really is no point. It’s like trying to push away the full moon, or a thunderstorm. It’s going to show up, and stay awhile, and then it will fade away. Yes, I have a prescription, and yes, there are many things that alleviate the pain. Mostly hot showers and mindful rest and water with lemon. I used to have the kids sit on my head, but they’re getting a bit old, so I’ve compensated with books and a pillow.
I do hear there’s a device out there now, a headband, and I’m looking into it. Hopefully it will work. It does sound a bit odd, wearing a metal band on one’s forehead, but who am I to say it’s silly? There’s an answer to every question, and sometimes it’s obvious, and sometimes it’s odd, and sometimes you just have to take someone’s word for it.
There’s also a blessing in most crappy things. Or alongside them. After years of being alive, I know this. Not because I lean toward optimism (some days reality is a challenge), but because it’s true. Thing is, you have to find that blessing on your own. With migraines, there are several: I get to rest for a few days; I experience stretches of uber-creativity; and the feeling I have once that ache leaves my head is on par with ecstasy, and almost (but not quite) worth the pain.
Everyone has Something. I know this too. Even if they don’t seem like they do, there’s something. Fear of this, hatred of that, OCD, anxiety, self-esteem issues, anger problems, marriage frustration, rebellious children, financial struggles, back pain, hammertoes, seasonal affective disorder, allergies, food challenges, something. Some people have several Somethings. And yes, for some of those Somethings, it’s not easy finding the blessing part. Sometimes the blessing appears after the fact, or in the words, “Well, it could have been worse.” But if you can find it, you’re that much stronger. And strength, my friends, is a blessing in itself.
This recipe comes to me from a dear friend far away, whose mother made applesauce cookies for him when he was young, and who makes them now for the people he loves. I enjoyed them, too, as a child, when my grandma set them out on a big flowery plate when I visited. They’re pretty darn good cookies. And light on the butter, for those of you who like your cookies by the handful.
Applesauce Drop Cookies
½ cup shortening
1 cup sugar
1 cup applesauce (unsweetened)
1¾ cups flour
1 tsp soda
½ tsp salt
1 tsp cinnamon
½ tsp cloves
½ tsp nutmeg
1 cup quick oats
a handful of raisins
Cream together shortening and sugar; stir in egg and applesauce. Add flour, soda, salt, cinnamon, cloves, nutmeg, oatmeal, and raisins. Fold in oatmeal until all ingredients are combined–do not over-mix.
Drop by tablespoonsful onto foil-lined cookie sheet and bake in 375 degree oven, 9-12 minutes. Cookies only brown very slightly at edge when done; do not over bake. These are soft cookies, very moist and cake-like. Store in a closed container like a tin, separating layers with wax paper.
(When I asked my friend how many cookies this recipe makes, he replied, “I have no idea what the yield is on these, I’ve never managed to get all the dough in the oven.” So there you have it.)